Under Construction!

The last few years have been ones of self discovery for me.

It is like I awoke from some kind of “loser” brainwashing mentality.

I use to believe the people who said  I was not good enough-but now I say “nuts” to them! ( Actually what I say is a little bit stronger than that, but… well ….I try and keep it at a PG level around here.)

What triggered my big “wake up”?

I am not really sure, but it is like I woke up one day and said, ” I am tired….”

Tired of trying to please people who will never be pleased with me  no matter what I do.

Tired of trying to fit in….whatever that means.

Tired of  trying to  hide  the silly ranting crazy chick you have all  come to love. ( maybe Love is a little strong)

Tired of being afraid to take  any chances.

Tired of sitting on the sidelines of life.

You could say I am “Under Construction” ; becoming who I was meant to be until interrupted by circumstances, negative talkers, and people who meant to harm me.

I am a little late getting started on the journey, but as the old cliche says, ” Better late than never!”



I am me and nobody else. One of a kind just like the rest of the world.

7 thoughts on “Under Construction!

  1. Good for you. For me it was my introversion. I spent years trying to fight it; trying to make myself more “comfortable” with being out there in a social setting. But it wasn’t happening, so I finally decided to accept that I am who I am. Much more liberating not to try and please people by being a certain way. 🙂

    1. There is nothing wrong with introversion my daughter is an introvert and my husband is as well.
      They are the people I love and I accept them the way they are and anyone who doesn’t?- Well phooey on them!

      The weird thing is that I found out I was not much of an introvert as I thought? -I was just hiding!
      Now it is look out world- no more of that-Poor world! 🙂

      1. We introverts love people like you. I so admire outgoing and dynamic personalities.

        It’s funny how much I like to socialize online but not in real life. I guess because in the online world, it’s in bits and pieces and doesn’t require small talk or eye contact. 🙂

      2. Sometimes it is easier without all that eye contact business-I still look at people’s chins or foreheads!

        I came from a family of 10 most of them “dynamic personalities” it was adapt or be swallowed!
        I am number 9 and my brother, Oliver, is number 10-I always say we had to develop our sarcastic wit for survival reasons! 🙂

  2. Sounds good – happy to join your “construction” journey! Also, damn you have a lot of siblings Nr. 9! 1 more and you’ve got a family football team…I meant “soccer”…no, I meant “football”…yeah

    1. Well 7 of us were girls!- We did play a lot of family softball.
      Isn’t “Soccer” what you Europeans call “football”? 🙂
      Happy for the company on the “journey” and as always thanks for stopping by.

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